{Boyfriends}

So, I found out last weekend that one of my ex-boyfriends was in prison. And that that's why he wasn't returning my phone calls and texts. I asked why, and his younger brother said that it was for murder. So, curiosity got the best of me and I asked if it was a false conviction or if my nightmare had come true and he was guilty. He is guilty. To be honest, I truly think I love him. I don't think I'll ever stop. But I do need to get over him. I know I won't be able to see or talk to him for another 40 years anyways, and hopefully by then I will be happily married. He was my first love and definitely not my last. I'm worried about him and I want to talk to him and see him one last time more than anyone would ever be able to understand. Not sure that's going to happen though. I want him back and I don't know why. I shouldn't and I know some people are going to judge me for that. I don't care about that either. They can deal with it. It's my life. I know he would never do anything to hurt me, even though by not being able to see or talk to him is killing me inside. I won't let that show. I'm praying for him and for me to get over this. It's going to be a long hard road ahead, but I can do it with Jesus by my side.